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Yea, played at this guy David's house tonight. I would predict his live stats, put into PT form, would be 40/24/5.5. So, he's an overaggro LAGtard, never folds hands worth a shit. Anyway, buyin was $10, blinds at $.10/$.20. We're playing 4handed, my friend Jeff just busted out to me. I've rebought numerous times and have a stack of about $50, Paul ~$12 (not in the hand), and David covers by a bit (I've lost about $55 or $60 to him because he's run rele well against me and I made a few costly mistakes). Neway, He opens button, it's 3handed to $1.50 (14.5x raise!?), I reraise to $4.50, he flatcalls pretty quickly. Pot is $9 to the flop. Flop is the beautiful KJ5 rainbow. I cbet $5 hoping to get played back at, which is frequent. For some reason, he overbet shoves effectively $40 into a pot of $14 with an OESD, where 1/2 of my reraising range is AA, KK, AK, JJ, KJ? Yea, so I snapcall. Pot is $100. Turn is the beautiful A of spades, taking his ~14% equity preflop and 32% equity on the flop to a pretty gay 75% equity on the turn. I am 3:1 to fill river, I of course miss. I ship a 500BB pot to his lovely stupid overbet shove with a mere OESD. I didn't think he would play that ridiculous against me. I kept reloading lavishly because I was fostering a maniac image to set up for that ONE hand. It's so sick how I did it so perfectly, got someone to put their money in as bigger than a 2:1 underdog and lose. Overall tonite, I got coolered and whatnot, but It's sick to think about that I would be even for the nite if I had won that $100 pot. So fckin sick... Now is a time to think about how fortunate I am to where losing $100 in one night is not much for me at all. It feels rele bad, but I think it's longterm +EV because I can keep playing in that game. My avg win there has been ~$40. Therefore, it's good to lose once in a while (obv less than $100 in a session), but that's to show that I am human and I can keep coming welcomly back to the game. Yea, I'm lucky that $100 is rele nothing to me, but it's so tough to lose REAL money, as opposed to "virtual" money online. I have no idea why I feel so shitty about this- in my live game I lost some big pots, though ended up winning, but didn't even feel sick about it!? I hope I'm not turning into a weak fuckin nit... sike. Neway, I'm happy how I played the whole night to set up for that one 500BB pot where I got it in with the goods. I'm also glad I decided to reraise preflop just because I knew he'd call with almost any two he'd raise with, and I just gotta build the pot to eventually put my stack in with KK on a clean board and hopefully win a big one. Exactly what I did, and well, didn't work out w/e poker sux! This game has made me a different person, and I'm glad I got into it, even tho the swings can be SICK. As long as I can stay in a positive mind state and look at the good side of things, as well as take the good with the bad because poker is an ongoing game, just like life, where at the end you just have to show success and so one day is a "small sample size" over the course of one's life, so yea, poker-life epiphony. On a side note, Lindgren just won $200k from Ivey, $100k from Gavin Smith, and $40k from a bunch of others on an insane golf prop bet. How people can gamble that money when they can barely afford other shit is sick (Gavin Smith). I think he's a nice guy and a fairly good player, so I don't want him to go broke- tho it's looking a bit tough if he keeps living the gambling lifestyle with what I don't believe to even be THAT much of a net worth. Lindgren definitely wasn't rolled for this prop bet, and I don't even know if Ivey was! Yea well w/e they're sick human beings to take a chance on that kind of money, though they do it for a living!