WTF I rele do Run bad at Nite during MTTs!

OK- I WILL NOW STICK 100% to the rule- NEVER PLAY late at nite OR during an MTT!?
WTf? I Played well and jus got coolered/bad beated... I mean wtf? Unreal- lost $1800 today(!!!!) and had a $3k swing from this morning when I wuz at 5750!? WTF....
Roll- $2750
Goal- $6k end of month AND FUCKING HOLDING ON TO IT
Yea, stick to RULES, everything will be OK NO FCKIN excuses; no rules=no roll...
Hands:

Got lucky vs a complete donk...http://www.pokerhand.org/?1116715

That wuz like one of the few hands I won...
Guy hit a river two outer- the ONLY card he could have fucking called a shove with. LOVELY... I wuz SOOO close to c/r turn!!!! I didn't pull the trigger FUCK
He played the hand HORRRIBLY- min raising flop, betting turn!? Yea, fuckin idiots get lucky with a 2 outer that they can call a shove with nice http://www.pokerhand.org/?1116717

Standard... I almost never call preflop here but once I call preflop I have to get it all in on this flop. BTW, this guy got it all in postflop vs me with AA on two diff occasions postflop, both standard coolers...http://www.pokerhand.org/?1116723

Idiot plays ahand AWEFUL and hits river card...http://www.pokerhand.org/?1116724

Later, the guy with the AA from before had AA again, flatcalled my reraise preflop, and c/instaraised all in on flop. Of course, I have overpair on drawy flop, I call, and he of course tables aces. I picked up 8 more outs on the turn, and missed all 10 outs by riv. Yea... nice nite. For some reason no fucking hh.

Yea... I've had a new decision- I think imma play $.50/$1 nl with $3k-$3500 roll regularly and cash out. $1/$2 and $2/$4 nl have such sick variance I don't care- I'm happy with making like $3k a month at a comp 1 hour/day and I don't want to make poker so mentally stressful and tough on my life. With a $2750 roll now, soon enough I can be able to grind the .50/1 and cash out periodically. I shouldn't be bitching, I paid off my loans and have plenty to play with that are winnings, and I will probably have like $1400 this month from rakeback, so jus gotta grind- I figure $11k/year I will make in rakeback, so yea, I will use that to build a roll so in a year I'll be playing $1/$2nl for a bit then hopefully move up to $2/$4nl, or maybe even cash it out and wait longer until I go bak to like $2k swings like I had before when I wuz playing 2/4 nl.